Receiving Permanent Breakthrough

When the world started fearing Covid-19, my work quickly transitioned from an office to being at home. The move was forced by company policy change, so there was no say otherwise. I immediately struggled with work motivation and tired quickly from working in my bedroom. It was as if I was fighting myself to do even a normal day’s work. This continued for three years. It was so bad that at times I put down that I worked hours I hadn’t because I was falling behind and needed to keep up the image of staying on top of everything. I wanted to work and do it well, but I seriously struggled. Over three years, there were some times of higher productivity and motivation, but mostly times of very poor work. It was like a fight to do what was expected of a normal employee, in a normal job.

I started praying about this motivation problem right from the start of working from home because I knew it was an issue and my conscience needed to be kept pure. I got to a point where I made the decision to never put down time I hadn’t worked, even if the intention was to work it later. (The only exception was when forced to by the company). However, this didn’t solve the problem of having to fight to work more than three or four hours per day.

As I prayed more and more, I would get a breakthrough for a single day, or sometimes even a week at a time. The Holy Spirit would come upon me in a strong way and I could push through whatever was hindering me. However, I never got a permanent breakthrough, and I was always praying for another breakthrough after the last one. It was a never-ending cycle that felt very discouraging and hopeless.

After three years of going around in circles, there was a time when I was laying in bed listening to the audiobook of the Passion Translation of the Bible. It was playing from Proverbs 10.

The wisdom of Solomon: When wisdom comes to a son, joy comes to a father. When a son turns from wisdom, a mother grieves. Gaining wealth through dishonesty is no gain at all. But honesty brings you a lasting happiness. The Lord satisfies the longings of all his lovers, but he withholds from the wicked what their souls crave. Slackers will know what it means to be poor, while the hard worker becomes wealthy. Know the importance of the season you’re in and a wise son you will be. But what a waste when an incompetent son sleeps through his day of opportunity!
Proverbs 10:1-5 TPT

When the words were spoken in verse five: “What a waste when an incompetent son sleeps through his day of opportunity!” an explosion went off inside of my spirit! I was immediately quickened and a purpose and drive entered me that I had never had before. These verses played around in my mind and refused to leave. I couldn’t stop thinking that a slack son brings shame and grieving while a hard-working son brings honour and joy.

I realised very quickly that I had just had a supernatural event. I had been given an impartation from heaven that changed me on the inside and reshaped who I was. This may be hard to believe, but it’s important that you get this. I already knew I was changed before I even got off my bed to start the day.

Being over a month later, I can tell you that I have not been the same since this event happened. I have been given the ability to work hard and consistently. There are days that are battles, but it has completely flipped. I used to have days that I had a breakthrough, but now it’s the other way around – I have only some days that are a battle, and I’ve stepped into overthrow. Overthrow happens when you walk supernaturally. It cannot be done through works or effort. It is a gift from heaven that comes through meditating on the word of God.

Holy Spirit spoke to me about listening to the Bible and worship music as I sleep. When I received my impartation, I had heard those verses many many times before. However, there came a point where a supernatural transaction happened, and it only came through diligence and perseverance.

Many people need an impartation from heaven because it would resolve the troubles they are going through. If you are struggling in any area, you need an impartation. It’s that simple. Romans 12 speaks of impartation as a transformation of our mind.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Romans 12:2 ESV

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
Romans 12:2 NLT

Before I had an impartation, I could quote these verses by memory. However, I didn’t understand the power behind this verse until I had the impartation for myself. I could also immediately see and discern that most people around me hadn’t had an impartation.

The thing about impartation is that it not only brings correction to your own life, but it also brings discernment. Discernment is also an amazing gift from Holy Spirit, which only comes supernaturally. You cannot receive an impartation or receive discernment apart from Holy Spirit and apart from heaven.

You need to submit yourself to the word of God. You need to yield to what the words are saying because they are directly from God, and they will change you. You need to keep in mind that God spoke the world into being. His words are so powerful that their sound created who we are and everything around us.

God is supernatural, and you will never enter into His will by your own effort or strength. The key here is to meditate on and yield to what the Spirit of God is saying to you. It needs to not be a one-time event after reading this, but it needs to be your lifestyle. When you change your lifestyle, you change who you are. In other words, who you are right now is not going to take you where you need to go. You must submit to the correction of Father God and let Him be your wisdom. You cannot rely on your own understanding or your own way of thinking, it must be transformed.

An important note here is that I prayed many many times, at least several hundred, if not over a thousand times about the motivation and work problem I was having. However, I could have saved myself a lot of time if I had simply yielded to the Spirit of God and listened to what He was teaching me. The answer was in the Word all along, but God hides mysteries in the pages which are only revealed to those who search them out.

I love you and I pray for you. I pray for everyone who reads this. Please make the Bible a part of your lifestyle and meditate on it continually. Keep it before you. Print out verses and put them at your work desk. Write post-it notes with verses on them. Put verses by your bedside, and fill yourself with the Bible. Keep the Word in your ears and eyes so that you are positioned to receive your impartation.

Every spiritual blessing has already been given to us through Christ Jesus, so there is no need to suffer any longer! You are losing time every moment that you don’t walk in overthrow, because you are called to your workplace to be a light. However, you cannot be a light if you are not shining. So, shine!

Your light will be very quickly shining when you get your impartation. Many people around me have noticed a dramatic change, and it has not been very long at all since the event happened. I have worked with these people for nearly eight years, and have not heard them say the things they are saying now so frequently.

You must listen to the word, especially the topics and areas where you need breakthrough the most. You will experience overthrow through the power of Holy Spirit at work in you as you yield. Continue in it, and persevere.

The Holy Spirit as a Helper

There was a time this year when I was at the end of myself. I had cried until I had nothing left to cry. I felt hopeless and weak, wishing I could disappear from all my problems. It was late at night and I was in my bed, laying there helplessly. I prayed for strength and fell asleep. In the morning, I woke with a spring in my step! I felt the presence of God inside of me and I had a strength and determination about me! It was like chalk and cheese comparing the morning to the night before.

I realised that day that God deeply cares for me and sees me in my weakness, helping me when I cannot help myself. The Holy Spirit taught me to trust in him, even when everything seems unlikely, even impossible. The Bible explains some of the Holy Spirit’s characteristics in John 14 and Romans 8:

But when the Father sends the Advocate as my representative—that is, the Holy Spirit—he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you.
John 14:26 NLT

And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.
Romans 8:26 NLT

The Holy Spirit will often remind us of truths we already know of, but don’t understand in our heart. I have found that when I read something, it doesn’t stick with me until it lands in my heart. Getting something from my head to my heart is hard by myself, but with the “helper”, the Holy Spirit, I am reminded of the truths in God’s word at crucial times when I need it most.

The best part of all is how the Holy Spirit is given to us permanently, and lives inside of us. I often hear him speak like a still small voice of wisdom. He always lifts me up when I am down, and always encourages me when I am weak. In the morning after my night of despair, I felt the presence of God so powerfully! The Holy Spirit truly lives inside of us as 1 Corinthians 6 says:

Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself,
1 Corinthians 6:19

I want to encourage you to listen to him when you are feeling low. He truly cares about you and will help in times of trouble. The Bible promises this, and when God says something, he will be sure to fulfill his word.

Have a great week!

From Knowledge to Relationship

I was at home preparing for a bible study that met on a weekly basis when I realised I didn’t remember anything spoken at church on Sunday. I wanted to pass it off as being busy and having a lot of different things in my life leading to forgetfulness. However, there was a deeper underlying problem. A hint was that this happened regularly, almost every week. Was I not spiritual enough? Did I not care about God’s word? Why was I not focused at church? These kinds of questions floated around in my mind.

Here’s what I didn’t realise: I had more knowledge of God than a relationship with him. A hint of this was how I thought about him – I thought of him as God. I didn’t talk to my Father, Jesus or Holy Spirit. They were a distant God in my mind. If you asked me, I would have told you that of course God was close to me, but in reality he was not. Did I pray throughout the day? Did I talk with the Father? Did I listen carefully? Did I ask him questions? No. I did not.

I knew what God liked and disliked, but not because he was telling me directly. I knew everything I knew because of the Bible or church preaching. The Bible is incredibly powerful, but reading it without a relationship with the Father held back its power. When I read it, I assumed I was always in the right and every promise belonged to me. In the same way, every curse or rebuke was for ‘bad’ people… or something…

How wrong I was!

I was blind to the sin and idols in my heart because I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus. Knowledge of him doesn’t give room for him to touch my heart and bring up the things I need to deal with. If only I had talked with him, asking him to reveal sin to be dealt with, I would have saved myself so much pain!

So, when did the change from knowledge to relationship happen? Well, it’s hard to give a date or time because it was more of a journey, but I can say for certain the process accelerated during a recent part of my life. When I was at the end of myself I forced, yes, forced myself into prayer like never before. I changed from praying 5 minutes per day (on a good day) to many hours each day.

Through my prayer times, my Father in heaven showed me many things about my heart and the mess that was inside. He also gently showed me what other people were feeling because of my actions. Wow. That wrecked me. I had no idea of just how much pain I had caused, especially to those closest to me. It still hits me as I write this, months later!

There is so much more to God than you can ever understand through teaching. The only way to truly understand God is to have a close relationship with Him and experience Him for yourself. His power and love are so life-changing, that if everyone were to experience them, the whole world would be changed in a single day.

I want to encourage you to press into prayer and worship. Spend time meditating on the Bible and switch off other voices such as video and text media. Your hearing will clear up significantly and you will draw closer and closer to your Father and experience greater measures of His love and favour in your life.

What are you filled with?

At around the age of 18, I went to one night of a youth camp. A guest speaker was preaching about being filled with God. Afterwards, I knelt for prayer and just started crying out to God, asking Him to fill me. As I was kneeling people began praying for me. The feeling of God filling me intensified. After a little time, I started to feel normal again and thought that must be it. I thought God filled me, but He had more. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and said ‘Caleb if you want more, press in harder.’ I started praying again, and tears continued to flow even more freely. After repeating this process four or five times, I was a wreak. I looked terrible! (I know because I went to the bathroom after and looked in the mirror. I was shocked at how bad I looked!) I had given everything I had to God. At that time, I felt so close to God I could feel every little uncaring comment and each rude remark. I felt all my senses on high alert, each one pouring love. I have never felt closer to God all my life. There has never been a time before or after that has been even close.

How hungry are you? Are you willing to put everything out there? Are you ready to surrender everything to God and trust Him to fill you, or are you too busy? Do you want a life-changing experience, or are you comfortable with your current relationship with God?

Revelation 3:20 says ‘Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.‘ In this verse, Jesus is talking. He desperately wants a relationship with you! Regardless of your current position with God, if you open your heart, even more, God will respond.